Absurd

14% left, wonder if I'll make it through this post. Hmm, i should really get an iPhone charger extender or whatever you call it. It's too fucking short and the plug is too far away from my bed so I can't charge my phone while using it :( really attached to my phone (who isn't), can't seem to have a peace of mind unless it's beside my pillow every night before I sleep.

Anyway, I really wanna blog about how shallow some people can be. Maybe I'm being judgmental of others, but it nags me at the back of my head every time I witness things like people telling others how beautiful/skinny a person is when she is not. Telling an overweight person that she's skinny doesn't make any sense to me. Why can't you just tell the person, "You're beautiful just the way you are" instead of "don't listen to anybody, you're damn skinny and pretty"? Somehow, it makes more sense that way, cos different people see things differently. People say that looks aren't important, it's the character that matters, and yes, I agree, but how often do we uphold that statement? In this society we live in right now, everybody gets judged by looks. Everywhere, even in school, as kids, fat people are ostracized, the mentally retarded are shunned at, etc. The media focuses on nothing but beauty. Character is built. Looks? Guess it's all up to luck.

I'm so tired.

I don't understand why people say things they don't mean. Really. For me, I either speak the truth when you ask me about something, or, I just keep it from you. I will never tell you a lie. It's really hard for me to say something when I don't mean it at all, I feel as though I'm deceiving myself, and I hate that feeling.

I'm becoming more and more straightforward towards others, which means I'm becoming more and more thoughtless as well. I wonder if it's a bad thing.