Team

Loneliness has taken a toll on me at a whole new level for the past one week. Surrounded by so many yet feeling so lonesome over half the time. The worst thing is that I don't even know how things ended up the way it is right now. I tried to blend in, to fit myself into the group, but I still feel so alone, like I don't belong at all. It sucks to know that you're not included. It sucks to have to pretend you don't care all the time. It sucks to try to squeeze yourself into a conversation. A whole group can laugh together, but how do y'know if everyone is laughing from the heart?

I really didn't know how to react yesterday. I felt a whole series of emotions: Happy > worried > sad > frustrated. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. Because I didn't know what to do next. Do I have the support of you girls..?

Nevertheless, I'm gonna stand up for what I believe in and do what's best for all of us. Not saying it's gonna be easy, but I'll do it anyway. :)