I think about you sometimes - I wonder how are you? I hope you’re okay, and doing well.

I don’t really think of the past as much as I used to anymore, which is honestly quite liberating. I was always stuck and now I’m not? Maybe you gave me that push back into reality that if I don’t hold onto things now I’m gonna lose the people and things that matter most to me. I don’t know. All I know is I was in a bad place, then I became a wreck, and I think I’m in a better place now. It feels kinda fast to be honest, but if you consider the number of years I was stuck then maybe not? It felt like a trigger of events. I don’t know why I’m so susceptible to change.

Spending almost everyday with 2 of the funniest people I know may be a reason for me becoming better so quickly. Thank you Hana and Estella, for filling my days with so much nonsense. Even though work is a bore and dread sometimes, y’all always make me laugh over absolutely nothing. I really can’t imagine not working with y’all. :’)

As for the guy I met, I guess we’re okay? I kinda have something to look forward to at the end of every week so that’s good. But I’m starting to get a feeling that he’s as fenced up as I am, and that’s an issue because I usually don’t let my walls down unless the other party does it first. We shall see.

I’m still taking the antidepressants. I think I can do without it but hey it’s supposed to make me feel calmer so why not?

My heart is kinda uneasy now. Maybe I was disappointed - ok, I was disappointed - I don’t want to feel this way. Not so soon anyway.