It’s been 2 weeks since I last checked in here; 2 weeks ago I wouldn’t have thought I would be feeling completely different.

I have stopped taking the sleeping pills - although my sleep is still quite erratic, I would wake up after a few hours and fall back asleep again, but hey it’s better than nothing? I sleep easier now.
I’m still taking the antidepressants - I don’t know if it’s doing anything but it makes me calmer (I feel?) and it’s probably the reason why I sleep easier now.

It’s funny, how it takes losing someone to see the things that he was always trying to get you to see. Thank you for your words, it took a long time but I’m finally seeing it now, and trying to view the world in a positive light and trying to be better every day.
I’m practising more self care now: running, boxing, listening to music and really listening to what it’s trying to convey. Removing myself from social media and comparing myself to others. Removing friends who just didn’t care about me.
I’m still trying to practise gratitude - which takes a lot of effort, but when my mind is quiet I’ll happily sing and dance and I’ll be like “Hey, I’m dancing! I’m happy.” and I think that’s a start.

And this is going to sound so crazy... but I met someone.

It’s to early to tell where this would go - maybe tomorrow we won’t be talking anymore. Of course there’s this whole issue of me trying to love myself first before getting into a relationship again... but if I have learnt anything it’s that faith goes a long way.

Who knows? Maybe I’ll check in here again in 2 weeks :-)